life

well, i haven't wrote in here in a while, and i think i have a lot to say...at least if i remember it all. lets see...first, i am getting sick of people...just like a lot of random people and society in general. the news lately is making me mad. at least what the news is reporting about people. wed. there was this cop that was killed, big news story and stuff, and they automatically thought it was the gunman that killed him. well, no, the gunman shot him, but into the bullet proof vest, and not fatally. he was killed by a bullet from friendly fire, some other state trooper shot him on accident, which we found out today. and i'm not saying the shooter did anything right(he's dead now) but we are so quick to judge lately, and we automatically think it is his fault. and like the v. tech shootings, everyone is thinking gun control is the problem and stuff, but i wanna tell americans, gun control will do absolutly nothing. laws only work for law abiding citizens, and trust me, there is not many of those. so that wouldn't have done anything, and the president and police did nothing wrong.
then theres my newspaper for the school, i'm editor, and i'm like sick of it right now. theres 2 advisors for it, which they don't talk much about it, and both have totally different ideas and i'm listening to both of them pretty much complain, and i just feel like quitting because i'm sick of it. i don't know, i'm just overall sick of that program right now and wanna b able to come and go as i please and not have to be the editor. only 2 more years of this crap...yay!!
speaking of 2 years, 2 years left for me!! only a month left of school(then 4 regents, shoot me now) and then i'll be actually considered an upperclassmen. it feels so weird getting older and thinking about the future and stuff. and like we're all getting permits and everything, and its just like really hitting me now that i'll be gone in 2 years. of course lately i can't wait for it, i'm like sick of living with my parents with them asking me stupid stuff and making me do stuff and whatnot. its not like i hate um, but like 1 night, it was 9, and my mom told me i had to go to bed...i'm like 1 sec...so i stayed on the comp. till 930 and she comes out and yells at me cuz i didn't go to bed. but its not like i go to bed anyways, i just watch tv in my room till like 1030, 11. so i don't c how watching tv or talking on the comp. is any different. but just things like that i'm getting sick of, and having like stupid rules and what not. i can live with the ones that make sense and stuff, but the stupid 1's like getting of the comp. at 9, what happens after 9??
but anyways, i'm just like ready to get out. right now i'd loveee to go to syracuse, but of course that'll never happen...not right now at least. my dad lost his job like 3 yrs. ago and now he is in this electrical company business thing, which i still don't call his job. most of the time he is here when i leave and come back, and a lot of the times lately he hasn't been going at all...no work. and its really just his friend helping him out. but like money isn't really a problem, its just theres like not much extra as there was before. and i kinda am mad at him for this cuz i'm like get a real job, theres plenty of stuff out there, and i mean he's always looking and stuff, but never does anything beyond that. and i'm just like mad at him for it and stuff. like my parents will help me out some w/ college, and i think i had a better chance of going to syracuse before this all happened and stuff, but now i feel like its just a hopeless dream, and i'll be going to a suny school. and those are good and everything, but idk, i think to be a doctor and get into med school, the college name def. helps. and like all my other friends ahead of me have like huge dreams, 2 wanna go to harvard, 1 at mit, and 1 to crane. i don't kno, i'd just love to go to a private school over a suny, but whatever.
hmm, can't think of much else right now...just felt like rambling on about everything...not like anyone will read it, but whatever.

april already!!!

well, it's april 1 today...pretty hard to believe for me. march wasn't that bad this year...normally its the month that takes forever and ever cuz theres no breaks and only 1 day off(which we never got cuz we needed a snow day just in case). but somehow it seemed to just go by pretty fast. probably cuz the 1st 2 weeks or so i was cramming for SO, but after that i really didn't do much with it...lol. i think april might go by slow...at least the end. break is in a week...starts friday, which is pretty early...normally its a week later. so it doesn't really split the month up, it just comes and then we have like 2 or 3 weeks left of april...which will kinda be a bummer...but o well. we're going to myrtle beach...which will be awesome...except its supposed to get a lot cooler here starting thurs...and that means cooler there. i want like 80 degree weather. actually i don't want it as much as normal by this time of the year...winter was really short, only 2 months really. except i hate this time of year...march and april. the snow is melting, and then it gets to the sandy part of the snow and all the snow is brown...and then we get dirt piles all over our yard. and its just a complete mess. all the roads driveways and sidewalks r like it too. and this year, having so much snow, the snow has been melting for about 4 weeks and yet we still have it on the ground. we do see green...its about 25:75%. but we still have all the huge piles to melt. stupid 12 ft. snowstorms...lol.
hmmm wut else to say. the school year is going to be done fast. we only have like 45 class days left before regents week(dreading very much) and really only 2 months left. june i think we go for a week and then r done, and april is practically half over(4 days this week then done for a while). so yeah, i'm kinda looking forward to the summer, but then i'm not. my parents are making me work, and im gonna have to work 5 days a week, and around the hours of 7-5 each day. i should be getting min. wage(7.15 i think in new york) so that'll be good, but still i just don't wanna work. i'm applying for this thing that'll be at SU and suny upstate and at the hospital which i think will be fun. i get to stay a week at the syracuse campus which would be awesome so hopefully i can get into that. and i can finally get my permit in july!! i can't wait for that, all my friends already have their permits or whatever, so i def. can't wait. but yeah, summer should fly by too and then 11th grade!!! whoo. that'll be fun, PSAT's, SAT's and college searching. i shouldn't mind um that much tho...specially college searching, that i think will be pretty fun. some days i def. cannot wait till i can leave and go to college...i've been getting sick of my family...lol. but as i did last year at this same time...i'm getting down to 2 years...amazing and exciting...lol. so till next time....